JANUARY 9, 2022
Happy New Year! It’s been a long while. 2021 was not a good year for me. I lost myself a little bit and it took me a little while to get back to myself. My insurance switched prescription providers or whatever and they no longer authorized insulin. My endo and I tried to get authorizations for all kinds of insulin and they were all denied. Meaning I’d have to pay out of pocket for my insulin. Like I could afford that. But you know what they did authorize? Ozempic, that $400+ pen that you inject once per week. Yea they said I could get that. But Ozempic IS NOT A SUBSTITUTION FOR INSULIN. So I could get Ozempic but not insulin. I’ve had to try other ways to manage my blood sugar and I felt defeated when nothing I was doing on my own was working so I stopped checking my blood sugar and I’ve just been injecting Ozempic.
I am trying to turn my health around. I made a weight loss journal to track my weight loss. I’ve lost ten pounds since starting so I’m glad that I’m losing weight and maybe if I lose enough, it’ll make a great impact on my health. I’m down below 190 pounds and that’s great for me. I will continue to lose weight and exercise as best I can.
I need to be more present with my health. I want to get better because I want to be here for my family. One day I want to start my own family and I want to be as healthy as I can when I do. I feel like I’m running out of time. I’m 27 now and I feel like it’ll be harder after 30. I need to make lifestyle changes now. My sister is also trying to get her life together so we’re kind of doing it together. My husband is also losing weight with me so I’m not alone here. Also we made weight loss goals. When we reach a goal amount of pounds lost, we get to reward ourselves. My first reward is at 15 pounds lost. When I reach it, my husband will buy and build a gunpla of my choice and let me display it. He’s the one who loves building them but I like looking at them. They’ve been coming out nice and I want one for myself. I might even help him build it too if he’ll let me.
I am very hopeful for this year in my health. I will make the changes I need to this year. It just feels all very overwhelming. But I will make it through. I’m not alone in this. I know I’m not and that helps. Thanks for hanging around. I really appreciate you.