Season Two: Episode Six

MARCH 28, 2021

This week I had an eye appointment for my new glasses. My eyes have gotten a little worse in the last three years. In the past year, I’ve been getting headaches from wearing my glasses so I knew I needed a new prescription. I’m glad I’m getting new ones.

My ophthalmologist said that the pressure in my eye is borderline high. I’m not sure how I can lower the pressure in my eye, but he said that’s the only problem he sees with my eyes right now, so I’m really glad that even though my diabetes still isn’t under control, it isn’t completely messing up my body yet.

On Friday, I had my appointment with my endocrinologist. Not very helpful. He wants to try and put me back on Ozempic. I told him that we were doing better financially but I don’t think we’re that great yet. I mean $800 per pen for only a month’s worth. Not sure how I feel about it but I said I would try. I’m not sure if he’s also giving me the fast-acting insulin too or if I’m even still going to be taking my Lantus with the Ozempic. I have to give his office a call this week to clarify my drug usage.

I’ve been feeling unwell the last couple of days. I haven’t been in to work much but I’m still working from home. I woke up with a sore throat a couple days ago and it went away, then the next morning it was worse and didn’t fully go away. Then this morning at 4:30 I woke up and couldn’t breathe or swallow and I was coughing. And I’m not going to lie to you, I thought I had COVID. I started crying and I couldn’t go back to sleep for a long while. But after sitting up for a while and drinking water, my cough got better and I was able to swallow a bit more.

My husband bought me cold and cough medicine when he came home from work and I took some and felt a lot better. I’m still coughing here and there but I can breathe. I’m still worried it’s COVID. We don’t have free COVID testing until Wednesday and that’s a bit too long to be out of work I think. But we’ll see what happens when I wake up in the morning on Monday, because apparently it happens while I’m asleep.

I’ll give you folks an update next Monday here on the blog or earlier on my Facebook page. I don’t know what’s going on with me, but if tomorrow I feel worse, I’m going to go to Urgent Care to see what the heck is up with my body. Wish me luck folks.

Season Two: Episode Five

MARCH 15, 2021

I have my Endocrinologist appointment set for next week Friday. I just went and got my lab work done this past Saturday. I forgot how much I hate needles. It hurt like a bugger. I had to make an appointment with our lab to do my blood stuff and the whole night before my arm was so sore and I was freaking out about the needle. The morning of I was scared and my arm was sore.

I’m so glad that even though I freak out about needles, as long as I don’t look at it, I don’t flinch. Do you know how much more sore it would be if I flinched? My goodness that would be painful.

I have to wait a couple of days for my results to be available through my portal and I can see what my A1C is. I’m not looking forward to that at all. I’m sure it’s high, like over 9. I’m so upset at myself. Yes I’ve lost weight but I haven’t been watching what I’m eating and my sugar has been elevated. I was in a rush this morning and I forgot to take my blood sugar before I left the house.

I swear my diabetes management has gotten worse this past year. I need to exercise and eat better so I can get my blood sugar down and maybe I won’t need to take the second insulin, which thanks to the Stimulus check I will be able to afford for a short time. But I can’t keep paying for two insulins and I need to work on myself too.

I’m really scared of needles and I don’t want to take two insulins and inject like three times a day. I don’t like this at all. I’ll let you folks know how my appointment goes in a couple weeks. But I’m sure he’s going to prescribe the second insulin.

Season Two: Episode Four

FEBRUARY 22, 2021

I have to schedule doctor appointments! So much fun. I need one with my PCP for this week or next week, one with my endocrinologist for whenever, and one for next year with my foot doctor. I haven’t seen my Endocrinologist in a couple months now and while money is still a bit tight, I really need to my A1C checked because I don’t think it’s doing great but I need to know where I’m at.

Apparently, my foot doctor no longer takes my MedQuest insurance so I have to change to another provider under MedQuest. Whenever I do that, if I can do that, then I can schedule my foot exam for next year. Hopefully, we are able to change our provider.

I just got off the phone with my Endocrinologist’s office and I have an appointment for next month set and I need lab work done so I’m glad the ball is moving on this because I can feel my diabetes is not getting better and I think it’s time to take that other insulin. It’s the only way I think.

I’ve managed to lose a little weight but it’s not enough and that’s so frustrating! I’m still eating less rice than before but I guess everything else still affects my blood sugar and that’s also VERY FRUSTRATING!!! I’ve been so busy with work that I haven’t been able to do a regular exercise regime or anything.

On an upside, last week a marketing copywriter for an app reached out to me and requested if they could do a guest post on the blog. That’s so exciting! So this Friday I will post my very first guest post! I am totally open to guest posts and I don’t mind if they promote themselves because I want to help everyone in the diabetes world. There’s not enough helpful information out there and I think more information should be available.

The guest post is about a diabetes app and I just downloaded it today. I plan to post a review about it next week so I have a whole week to check it out. It seems really cool so far and I can’t wait for you folks to get your hands on it too!

Other than that, I’m struggling to get my life and diabetes under control, but I’m still living life to the fullest!

Season Two: Episode Three

FEBRUARY 1, 2021

I’m sorry I haven’t been updating lately. I have been so busy with work that I can’t seem to find any time to blog these days, but I’m going to try and at least post ONCE a month for you folks. So far the update is neither good nor bad.

I have lost some weight just by cutting down on rice. If I even have rice in a day, it’s usually not a lot, maybe one or two scoops (about a cup) at any given mealtime. Most days I just go without rice and I’ll have mashed potatoes instead or nothing at all. Plus I’m consciously choosing more vegetables and proteins in my diet. I’ve managed to finally go below 212 pounds. I’ve been at about 212 pounds for several months, since the pandemic started. I’ve finally managed to keep my weight below 210 for a month so that’s an upside.

The downside is I haven’t been doing my insulin. I’m not sure how my medical is working out in the new year and I haven’t been in to see my doctor yet so I’m just making what I have already stretch, plus I still hate the needles I have and 99% of the time, they make me bleed and they are way more painful than my old needles. I have to find time to call my insurance company and make sure I’m still covered. But I am still unable to pay for a second insulin so I’m not sure when I’m going to see my endocrinologist again. Not too worried about it though.

I’m trying to take care of my diabetes on my own with diet and exercise and with what I’m doing I’m actually losing weight so who knows, if I lose enough weight and keep it off, I might be able to manage my diabetes better. My PCP always said if I just lost enough weight, I would be better off. Although he never told me how, I’ve had to manage on my own.

I am making arrangements to meet with a dietician so I can make my own diabetes meal plan and find what foods are best for me and all that jazz, so I’m excited about that. Work keeps me busy enough that I can keep myself moving and burning calories so I think I’ll be okay for now. I just have to get better at eating.

Thank you for sticking with me for this long. I am still selling stickers on my Etsy page. I hope to design and release new stickers in the next month or two. But for now I’ve been so busy and I just wanted to let you folks know that I am okay.

Season Two: Episode Two

JANUARY 10, 2021

I had my eye doctor appointment this past week. Turns out my eyes are okay. Thank goodness. I was a little worried when I took an eye test that gauged my peripheral vision. I could hardly see most of the lines with my left eye, but my doctor said I was nearly perfect which was good considering it was my first time doing that test. Though I do remember when I was a kid, I did something like it at my pediatrician’s doctor office. Gosh that was a memory from a million years ago, I still remember how the doctor office looked it never changed, and it actually still hasn’t changed to this day. The same doctor is there still practicing.

My gynecologist is the same doctor that delivered my sisters and I. It’s pretty crazy living in a small town. Hardly anything changes here, but when you really look, everything has changed.

I am currently making changes to my life. I think it’s been pretty positive so far. I have consciously made the decision to eat less rice. Before I would eat rice every meal of the day, but now it’s only once or twice a day, mostly once though. As I write this on Sunday night, I had a fruit salad for dinner because I had a pretty heavy breakfast, medium lunch, and I just didn’t feel like eating a lot for dinner so we went and got fruits. I wanted apples, but I ended up eating the fruit salad instead tonight.

This morning, I was the lightest I’ve been since May 2020. I weighed in at 207.9lbs. I’ve been plateaued at 212 for a long time and I’m really glad that cutting out rice has really made me feel lighter and less bloated. Sometimes I’m weak and eat a bunch of rice, but now I feel awful afterwards and completely regret it, so I’m learning a little at a time. I’m getting there.

I still haven’t contacted my endocrinologist. I’m going to get a raise at my job, so maybe that’ll be able to help pay for the second insulin, but really, I don’t think I can afford it. Oh and my pharmacist gave me a different needle from the one I’ve had and I HATE IT. It says it’s the same length as my other needle but that is a bull lie, it looks so much longer! When I inserted the needle in my thigh, I felt the whole thing and it kind of felt like it popped something when the whole needle went in, I don’t know how else to describe it. When I was injecting the insulin, I could feel every single click of the plunger as each unit went in and I HATED THAT MOST. It’s not been a good experience.

I’m working and studying to get my securities license. I’m trying to really work on my business and it’s going to be a long road, but I have to keep reminding myself why I’m doing it. The studying is like learning a whole new language but I’m excited about it.

My blood sugar still hasn’t been in range all that much lately, but I’m getting there. I wish I wasn’t diabetic. I wish I could have a child and a house of our own. I wish I wasn’t fat and I had an actual butt. Wishing can only get you so far. You have to put in the work and make your wishes come true. You can shout your wishes to the Universe, but YOU have to meet the Universe halfway. I’m trying to meet the Universe halfway and it’s a lot of work, but I have so much to fight for. I have to fight for it, no matter what.

Season Two: Episode One

JANUARY 4, 2021

It’s a new year and honestly I’m not sure if it’s a new me. The drive and passion to make changes in my life are just as strong as five days ago but my willpower is as low as ever. I know what I have to do, it’s finding the motivation to get up and move. When I do move, I’ll keep moving. It’s the first step that’s always the hardest.

On the other hand, The Young and Diabetic has turned one and it’s honestly so amazing that I’ve managed to keep this blog going for one year. I’m notorious for starting things and stopping right in the middle, but I think it’s because I’m so passionate about diabetes that’s keeping me going. Not to mention you guys. As much as I like writing to keep me busy, it’s good to know that someone, somewhere out there is reading my work and actually liking what I write. You’re amazing. If you weren’t here, I would have stopped writing a long time ago I think.

I hate the idea of resolutions and diets. I hate them because I never remember them and I never stick to them. Resolutions seem so temporary even though they’re meant to be kept the entire year, we forget after a couple of weeks. So instead, here is a list of my goals for the year:

  1. Build My Followership. Get 500 followers on The Young and Diabetic blog, 250 likes on The Young and Diabetic Facebook page, and 150 followers on @younganddiabetic on Instagram, 500 subscribers to my newsletter.
  2. Reach My Goal Weight. I am now 212lbs and I want to reach my goal weight of 160lbs this year. That’s a 52lb weight loss, one pound per week.
  3. Reach Etsy Shop Goals. Make $1000 in revenue and 150 orders.
  4. Reach My Business Goals. Protect 60 families and recruit 60 people with my business.
  5. Save More Money. Get to $2000 for retirement, save up $2000 for a second car, and save up $2000 to buy a house. This is just for the year but I hope to save up a lot more.
  6. Get My Diabetes Under Control. I want to be able to lower my insulin and metformin dosage this year.

I’m going to print out my goals and post them in my room and at my desk so I can always seem them and take steps everyday to achieving them. I encourage you to write down your goals for the year. Avoid using certain phrases like “I want to lose 20lbs” instead say you want to achieve your goal weight of whatever it is. Aim big, you more than likely won’t make it but even if you make it halfway, that’s a big win. Like I have 100 followers right now and it took all year to get 100. I think realistically I can get another 100 this year, but if I aim for 500, 250 will still be a big win for me!

Feel free to share your goals with me so I can help cheer you on. You all are going to keep me accountable this year. I really appreciate all of you. Thank you for sticking with me. I hope you have a great 2021 and you achieve your goals and dreams this year.

Celebrating One Year!

Today The Young and Diabetic turns ONE!

I can’t believe 2020 has come and finally gone. Our first year together has been filled with ups and downs. We’ve been through a lot together, you, my valued reader, and I.

I remember in the final months of 2019, I was planning out my new up and coming blog about diabetes. I started putting together my website and began planning what kinds of posts I would publish. My mission was to educate people about diabetes so they can better manage their disease or so they can help others on their journey. My mission stays the same now going in to 2021.

I fell off the wagon last year and I plan to get right back on for the new year. My plans for this blog are too grow my followership and post regularly. I want to post more diabetic-friendly recipes and find more things about diabetes. I want to expand my Etsy shop and get better at marketing. But most of all, I want to continue sharing relevant and quality information about diabetes with all of you.

Also, to celebrate this amazing milestone for me, I will be offering free shipping on my Etsy shop ALL MONTH LONG!!! You can now have your stickers and masks shipped to you for free. My email subscribers are also going to receive a special discount for my shop, so if you want to find out what it is, subscribe to my newsletter to get access to special discounts and extra goodies!

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I have other products in the works which were supposed to be released this week but due to how backed up everything got with the holidays, I’ve had to postpone release until further notice. My email subscribers already know what’s coming and I really can’t wait to share with everyone.

2021 is going to be a great year regardless of everything to do with the pandemic. I’m speaking this in to existence right now. 2021 is going to be great. For me. For you. For everyone. We can make it through this new year. You’ve got this. And thank you for supporting me and celebrating one year of The Young and Diabetic.

The Journey: Episode Twenty-Eight

NOVEMBER 30, 2020

I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving regardless of how you spent it. I also hope you all were safe this past weekend. I live in a multi-generational home so we stayed home for Thanksgiving for the most part. I helped my grandma make the turkey, my husband and I cooked the sides, my sister and mom sat with my grandma and watched the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade.

My mom went to California the week before and came back the Tuesday before Thanksgiving. I was against it but she never listened to me before. She tried to appease me by buying us stuff. I’m still upset that she went and put us all at risk but now I can be upset with dried cranberries and almonds.

We had two regular pumpkin pies, a custard pie, and a pumpkin cream cheese pie. The last one was so good, it was gone by the end of dinner. We had a good time as a family. It’s the only time of year that my family actually acts like a family and we eat together and talk and have fun together.

I accidentally carb loaded my plate, but on the bright side I was so full from my one plate that I didn’t go for seconds. I barely had room for pie. I felt, not completely full, but really full. Usually I would pile food on my plate and then go back for seconds, but this year I didn’t eat that much which was a surprise to everyone. I drank a lot of water and I went on a short walk before eating.

I wish we still had our community Turkey Trot this year. I went with my other sister the last two years and it was a lot of fun. But she moved away a couple months ago so I would have had to go alone anyway. Last year, I had beat my time from the year before and I was hoping to do it again, but alas, stupid Coronavirus prevented us from having the Turkey Trot this year.

We didn’t do Black Friday this year. Our stores weren’t doing the usual Black Friday anyway, but also we just didn’t have the money. Instead, we looked longingly at the sales papers at all the things we wanted but couldn’t buy. Same thing this Cyber Monday unfortunately. We don’t get paid until later this week and even then we have bills to pay and medication to buy.

I’m thinking of designing a diabetes planner journal thing. Not sure what I’m going to call it yet. I’m thinking about it mostly because I have to find a printer and I don’t have much of a budget for those sort of things right now. But it’s an idea I want to work on.

Besides that my health has been in the hole this holiday season. My blood sugar has been high, my blood pressure has been high, my sleep schedule is messed up, and my feet have been really sore. I’ve been really super depressed lately but yesterday I pushed through and cleaned my room. I also sold some stuff on Facebook Marketplace that we no longer need and was cluttering our room. They’ve all sold pretty quickly and we had money for gas thankfully.

Good luck this holiday season. There’s so much going on this season and we can all make it through this. Don’t be afraid to talk about what’s going on in your life. It’s a whole weight off your shoulder just by sharing your troubles with someone.


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The Journey: Episode Twenty-Seven

NOVEMBER 16, 2020

Well there isn’t really anything to update. A couple weeks ago, we bought an ice cream/rice scooper with the little wiper thing. Last night, I finally used it to help my portion control with my rice. Usually I pile the rice on however much I THINK I need, which is way too much. So last night I used my scoop and made two small scoops. They were small like I could put them in my hand and roll them into little rice balls. We had breakfast for dinner, eggs, bacon, and Portuguese sausage with rice. My two scoops were just the right amount! I am so upset by how much I have been overeating rice in my life. My blood sugar didn’t really reflect the lower amount of rice, but I’m sure in the long run it’ll start showing.

In Hawaii, it’s common for people to lose weight when they eat less rice or no rice at all. I’m definitely going to be eating a lot less rice, so we’ll see how much weight I lose, if any at all.

As of today, I’ve gotten two orders on my Etsy shop and I’m super excited that I’ve even gotten that much. My hopes of selling stickers and other merchandise to keep my blog running is working pretty okay right now. If I can sell four or five stickers, then I have enough to order a new sticker design or another batch of stickers so I’m really excited for that! I’ve saved enough that I can order one or two new designs to put up on the shop in the coming weeks. Since you’re my follower, you get to see what’s new first. You can also follow my Instagram and Facebook to see updates too!

My sister thinks I should make car decals. While I think that’s a great idea, I do have to find suppliers and keep it within budget. I do have plans to expand to pins and notebooks one day. If I do decide to do decals, I have a friend who makes decals on her cricut and I could maybe ask her to make a batch for me, that way I can keep things local and the money in Hawaii’s economy. That would be great. But we’ll see what happens. It’s only been a little over a week now and I’m doing okay so far.

I’m running low on Lantus prescriptions so I’d have to call my endocrinologist to renew my prescription for another year’s worth of insulin. 95 units seems to be where it’s at unfortunately. If I can bring my weight down and my blood sugar under control, then maybe I can lower my insulin dosage, but I haven’t been within range with 95 units enough times yet and I’m terrified to go up to 100 units. 95units already hurts a lot and I am not a fan of double injections on the same night.

In fact, my left thigh has still been sore recently so I’ve decided to do 20 injections in my right thigh for now. I’m making sure the last ten are staying at least one inch below the first ten and at least 1/4 inch away from each other. So far this arrangement has been working out as I just did injection 16 last night. I just hope that my left thigh will be okay for injections to start soon. It’s been really tender and sore to the touch on some places. The bruises have faded away but there are still bumps from old injections that still haven’t gone away yet. It’s pretty frustrating.

I’ve been pretty proud of myself. We still have a lot of Halloween candy in the house since October and I haven’t been going off on them like I thought I would. In fact, the most chocolate I ate in the past month was yesterday and it was because of my period and even then it was maybe 2 ounces of chocolate.

I’ve also decided to get back in to intermittent fasting as well. I already don’t eat after a certain time anyway so making it to 16 hours usually isn’t that difficult, but I want to make it a regular thing more often. I’m going to keep trying. Somehow I’ve had this sudden spurt of inspiration and determination that is propelling me forward with eating better and moving around more. I don’t know where it came from, but I want to jump on it and try to turn it in to good habits before I lose it, you know?

I guess I did have updates on my journey today. I’m really glad you’re sticking around. Your support is giving me the motivation to continue working on myself to be better. Suddenly sitting in front of a couple dozen people make being accountable all the more easier to do. Thank you so much for supporting me, especially through this pandemic. It’s been hard but I’m really glad that I’m doing this. It’s never too late to want to make yourself healthier.

The Journey: Episode Twenty-Six

NOVEMBER 8, 2020

Well nothing really good has happened. My endocrinologist has decided he can’t help me if I can’t afford my medication. Like thanks, man. I can barely afford my Lantus every two weeks and another insulin would be pushing it. I finally met the deductible for my health insurance this year and it only lasts until December 31, 2020 then my deductible starts all over again. I have to pay $6500 before they pay for anything. I’m not sure if my deductible will change next year.

So whenever I get a job and I’m able to pay for additional medication, he said I can give him a call and we can get started on another insulin. I’m hoping that I can get my blood sugar under better control before then so I won’t need it. I was doing so well with my blood sugar before and now it’s so out of control.

I suspect it started after my dog had a stroke and I was up most of the night and day keeping an eye on her to make sure she didn’t get hurt or crawl under the bed. Her condition didn’t improve and we had to put her down on October 27th and my blood sugar still hasn’t improved. I really miss her and her death hit me pretty hard. I’m getting better though and since I no longer have to take care of her, I can now apply for a job, but with coronavirus, they’re pretty slim pickings and I’m concerned for my own health with my compromised immune system.

All I can do right now is take care of myself. I need to make sure I eat healthier, sleep better, and exercise more. If I can find a job, we could hopefully move out of my grandma’s house and find a place of our own. I’ve been really stressed so I also need to better manage my stress. It’s all a bit much but I can do it. I am also taking an online hypertension management class offered through a local program. It’s only on Thursday night for three weeks but I’ve already learned a lot from the first class.

I am a little more motivated to work on my diet now. I am aiming for a low-fat, low-sodium, and low-carb diet to help manage my hypertension (high blood pressure) and diabetes. They are also going to sign me up for a nutrition class they offer and get me in contact with one of their dieticians. I haven’t been able to meet with one since my diagnosis three years ago so this will be great.

I am also going to make an effort to eat more fruits and veggies as well as exercise more. Just getting out of the house will do me good I think.

Other than that, I’m pretty much in a worse place than a couple months ago and there’s a lot of work I have to put in to get back to where I was and improve on that. Right now, I weigh about 211 pounds so I have a lot of work to lose 10% of my body weight, which is my goal.

Money is always going to be a problem for my husband and I right now during this pandemic and the only way to remedy it is for me to find a job. Until then, I am also selling stickers on my Etsy shop. It’s not much but it can help keep my blog running without using my own money.

I have three designs ready to print, I just need the money for them, which I’m saving up for. I’m also designing a couple more. I really like making the stickers. It’s a lot of fun. I am also thinking of making enamel or acrylic pins using the same designs. This is very exciting!