Season Three: Episode Three

JANUARY 24, 2022

Nothing much to report. This past week I’ve had a couple of high blood sugar days and I can tell because I’ll get extremely thirsty, very hot, and really tired. I think it was Wednesday or Thursday, I literally slept almost the entire day. That’s not good.

I’ve been keeping up with my oral medication but without insulin, I’m pretty much on my own. I’ve restarted my Ozempic though. I’m gonna use it until my pen runs out then I won’t have anything. My insurance kicks in next month so hopefully I’ll be able to get insulin again. Hopefully.

I’ve started doing thirty minute walks with my dog. She’s a bit chunky too so the exercise will be good for both of us. Although, I think the other day I went walking without having eaten much and my sugar went a bit too low that my liver compensated. And I know this because during my walk I was getting weak and then that night I felt like I was running a temperature I was so damn hot.

But of course I’m an idiot and forgot to take my blood sugar before and after. I’ve been pretty lax on taking my blood sugar recently. Kind of really fed up with needles. I know I should get back to it, but I don’t particularly want to.

Hey, did you hear about Mark Cuban’s new pharmacy? They’re supposed to be transparent about their prices and offer medication at a cheaper cost. Unfortunately, they don’t have insulin, but they do have other medication you might be interested in. You can check it out here if you want to.

Hopefully next month things will get better. I’ll keep making good food choices and exercising when I can. I can do this. This is my health and life at stake here. I can do this!

Season Three: Episode Two

JANUARY 17, 2022

Things are slow going. I’m still trying to get health insurance through Healthcare Marketplace. I’ve got it but they need to verify my credits used towards it and that takes a hot second. I’ve already got my dental plan going. I have to wait until after February 1 to do any doctor appointments.

I haven’t seen my endocrinologist since, I think, last September. I haven’t gotten my current A1C done since then.

I saw my eye doctor last month and I can push my appointments to four months apart instead of three but I need a visual field test in March first. Not gonna lie I think my visual field is a bit bad. My peripheral has some blank spots, not good. It’s mostly my left eye that’s giving me problems. If I don’t get my diabetes under control I’m gonna need eye injections and those don’t look fun AT ALL!!

My feet have been okay lately. I still get random cramps but I can still feel things so that’s a good sign. I don’t want to lose feeling in my toes.

I can’t wait to find a dentist. I haven’t seen one in three years. My teeth may need some help to be honest. I found our my family on my mom’s side has teeth problems. Not sure if it’s genetic or not but my mom, her siblings, and her mom all have missing teeth for whatever reason. I need to take care of my teeth.

I’ve lost two pounds last week since the week before. Weigh in days are Thursday mornings so we’ll see if I’m still losing. I am taking advantage of being at home and having a dog. Yesterday we went on a half hour walk around the neighborhood. It’s the longest walk we’ve taken in a while and we were both exhausted afterwards. I need to make it a regular thing. She needs to lose weight too.

Thanks for sticking around. I really appreciate you.

Season Three: Episode One

JANUARY 9, 2022

Happy New Year! It’s been a long while. 2021 was not a good year for me. I lost myself a little bit and it took me a little while to get back to myself. My insurance switched prescription providers or whatever and they no longer authorized insulin. My endo and I tried to get authorizations for all kinds of insulin and they were all denied. Meaning I’d have to pay out of pocket for my insulin. Like I could afford that. But you know what they did authorize? Ozempic, that $400+ pen that you inject once per week. Yea they said I could get that. But Ozempic IS NOT A SUBSTITUTION FOR INSULIN. So I could get Ozempic but not insulin. I’ve had to try other ways to manage my blood sugar and I felt defeated when nothing I was doing on my own was working so I stopped checking my blood sugar and I’ve just been injecting Ozempic.

I am trying to turn my health around. I made a weight loss journal to track my weight loss. I’ve lost ten pounds since starting so I’m glad that I’m losing weight and maybe if I lose enough, it’ll make a great impact on my health. I’m down below 190 pounds and that’s great for me. I will continue to lose weight and exercise as best I can.

I need to be more present with my health. I want to get better because I want to be here for my family. One day I want to start my own family and I want to be as healthy as I can when I do. I feel like I’m running out of time. I’m 27 now and I feel like it’ll be harder after 30. I need to make lifestyle changes now. My sister is also trying to get her life together so we’re kind of doing it together. My husband is also losing weight with me so I’m not alone here. Also we made weight loss goals. When we reach a goal amount of pounds lost, we get to reward ourselves. My first reward is at 15 pounds lost. When I reach it, my husband will buy and build a gunpla of my choice and let me display it. He’s the one who loves building them but I like looking at them. They’ve been coming out nice and I want one for myself. I might even help him build it too if he’ll let me.

I am very hopeful for this year in my health. I will make the changes I need to this year. It just feels all very overwhelming. But I will make it through. I’m not alone in this. I know I’m not and that helps. Thanks for hanging around. I really appreciate you.

Season Two: Episode Six

MARCH 28, 2021

This week I had an eye appointment for my new glasses. My eyes have gotten a little worse in the last three years. In the past year, I’ve been getting headaches from wearing my glasses so I knew I needed a new prescription. I’m glad I’m getting new ones.

My ophthalmologist said that the pressure in my eye is borderline high. I’m not sure how I can lower the pressure in my eye, but he said that’s the only problem he sees with my eyes right now, so I’m really glad that even though my diabetes still isn’t under control, it isn’t completely messing up my body yet.

On Friday, I had my appointment with my endocrinologist. Not very helpful. He wants to try and put me back on Ozempic. I told him that we were doing better financially but I don’t think we’re that great yet. I mean $800 per pen for only a month’s worth. Not sure how I feel about it but I said I would try. I’m not sure if he’s also giving me the fast-acting insulin too or if I’m even still going to be taking my Lantus with the Ozempic. I have to give his office a call this week to clarify my drug usage.

I’ve been feeling unwell the last couple of days. I haven’t been in to work much but I’m still working from home. I woke up with a sore throat a couple days ago and it went away, then the next morning it was worse and didn’t fully go away. Then this morning at 4:30 I woke up and couldn’t breathe or swallow and I was coughing. And I’m not going to lie to you, I thought I had COVID. I started crying and I couldn’t go back to sleep for a long while. But after sitting up for a while and drinking water, my cough got better and I was able to swallow a bit more.

My husband bought me cold and cough medicine when he came home from work and I took some and felt a lot better. I’m still coughing here and there but I can breathe. I’m still worried it’s COVID. We don’t have free COVID testing until Wednesday and that’s a bit too long to be out of work I think. But we’ll see what happens when I wake up in the morning on Monday, because apparently it happens while I’m asleep.

I’ll give you folks an update next Monday here on the blog or earlier on my Facebook page. I don’t know what’s going on with me, but if tomorrow I feel worse, I’m going to go to Urgent Care to see what the heck is up with my body. Wish me luck folks.

Season Two: Episode Five

MARCH 15, 2021

I have my Endocrinologist appointment set for next week Friday. I just went and got my lab work done this past Saturday. I forgot how much I hate needles. It hurt like a bugger. I had to make an appointment with our lab to do my blood stuff and the whole night before my arm was so sore and I was freaking out about the needle. The morning of I was scared and my arm was sore.

I’m so glad that even though I freak out about needles, as long as I don’t look at it, I don’t flinch. Do you know how much more sore it would be if I flinched? My goodness that would be painful.

I have to wait a couple of days for my results to be available through my portal and I can see what my A1C is. I’m not looking forward to that at all. I’m sure it’s high, like over 9. I’m so upset at myself. Yes I’ve lost weight but I haven’t been watching what I’m eating and my sugar has been elevated. I was in a rush this morning and I forgot to take my blood sugar before I left the house.

I swear my diabetes management has gotten worse this past year. I need to exercise and eat better so I can get my blood sugar down and maybe I won’t need to take the second insulin, which thanks to the Stimulus check I will be able to afford for a short time. But I can’t keep paying for two insulins and I need to work on myself too.

I’m really scared of needles and I don’t want to take two insulins and inject like three times a day. I don’t like this at all. I’ll let you folks know how my appointment goes in a couple weeks. But I’m sure he’s going to prescribe the second insulin.

Season Two: Episode Four

FEBRUARY 22, 2021

I have to schedule doctor appointments! So much fun. I need one with my PCP for this week or next week, one with my endocrinologist for whenever, and one for next year with my foot doctor. I haven’t seen my Endocrinologist in a couple months now and while money is still a bit tight, I really need to my A1C checked because I don’t think it’s doing great but I need to know where I’m at.

Apparently, my foot doctor no longer takes my MedQuest insurance so I have to change to another provider under MedQuest. Whenever I do that, if I can do that, then I can schedule my foot exam for next year. Hopefully, we are able to change our provider.

I just got off the phone with my Endocrinologist’s office and I have an appointment for next month set and I need lab work done so I’m glad the ball is moving on this because I can feel my diabetes is not getting better and I think it’s time to take that other insulin. It’s the only way I think.

I’ve managed to lose a little weight but it’s not enough and that’s so frustrating! I’m still eating less rice than before but I guess everything else still affects my blood sugar and that’s also VERY FRUSTRATING!!! I’ve been so busy with work that I haven’t been able to do a regular exercise regime or anything.

On an upside, last week a marketing copywriter for an app reached out to me and requested if they could do a guest post on the blog. That’s so exciting! So this Friday I will post my very first guest post! I am totally open to guest posts and I don’t mind if they promote themselves because I want to help everyone in the diabetes world. There’s not enough helpful information out there and I think more information should be available.

The guest post is about a diabetes app and I just downloaded it today. I plan to post a review about it next week so I have a whole week to check it out. It seems really cool so far and I can’t wait for you folks to get your hands on it too!

Other than that, I’m struggling to get my life and diabetes under control, but I’m still living life to the fullest!

Season Two: Episode Three

FEBRUARY 1, 2021

I’m sorry I haven’t been updating lately. I have been so busy with work that I can’t seem to find any time to blog these days, but I’m going to try and at least post ONCE a month for you folks. So far the update is neither good nor bad.

I have lost some weight just by cutting down on rice. If I even have rice in a day, it’s usually not a lot, maybe one or two scoops (about a cup) at any given mealtime. Most days I just go without rice and I’ll have mashed potatoes instead or nothing at all. Plus I’m consciously choosing more vegetables and proteins in my diet. I’ve managed to finally go below 212 pounds. I’ve been at about 212 pounds for several months, since the pandemic started. I’ve finally managed to keep my weight below 210 for a month so that’s an upside.

The downside is I haven’t been doing my insulin. I’m not sure how my medical is working out in the new year and I haven’t been in to see my doctor yet so I’m just making what I have already stretch, plus I still hate the needles I have and 99% of the time, they make me bleed and they are way more painful than my old needles. I have to find time to call my insurance company and make sure I’m still covered. But I am still unable to pay for a second insulin so I’m not sure when I’m going to see my endocrinologist again. Not too worried about it though.

I’m trying to take care of my diabetes on my own with diet and exercise and with what I’m doing I’m actually losing weight so who knows, if I lose enough weight and keep it off, I might be able to manage my diabetes better. My PCP always said if I just lost enough weight, I would be better off. Although he never told me how, I’ve had to manage on my own.

I am making arrangements to meet with a dietician so I can make my own diabetes meal plan and find what foods are best for me and all that jazz, so I’m excited about that. Work keeps me busy enough that I can keep myself moving and burning calories so I think I’ll be okay for now. I just have to get better at eating.

Thank you for sticking with me for this long. I am still selling stickers on my Etsy page. I hope to design and release new stickers in the next month or two. But for now I’ve been so busy and I just wanted to let you folks know that I am okay.

Season Two: Episode Two

JANUARY 10, 2021

I had my eye doctor appointment this past week. Turns out my eyes are okay. Thank goodness. I was a little worried when I took an eye test that gauged my peripheral vision. I could hardly see most of the lines with my left eye, but my doctor said I was nearly perfect which was good considering it was my first time doing that test. Though I do remember when I was a kid, I did something like it at my pediatrician’s doctor office. Gosh that was a memory from a million years ago, I still remember how the doctor office looked it never changed, and it actually still hasn’t changed to this day. The same doctor is there still practicing.

My gynecologist is the same doctor that delivered my sisters and I. It’s pretty crazy living in a small town. Hardly anything changes here, but when you really look, everything has changed.

I am currently making changes to my life. I think it’s been pretty positive so far. I have consciously made the decision to eat less rice. Before I would eat rice every meal of the day, but now it’s only once or twice a day, mostly once though. As I write this on Sunday night, I had a fruit salad for dinner because I had a pretty heavy breakfast, medium lunch, and I just didn’t feel like eating a lot for dinner so we went and got fruits. I wanted apples, but I ended up eating the fruit salad instead tonight.

This morning, I was the lightest I’ve been since May 2020. I weighed in at 207.9lbs. I’ve been plateaued at 212 for a long time and I’m really glad that cutting out rice has really made me feel lighter and less bloated. Sometimes I’m weak and eat a bunch of rice, but now I feel awful afterwards and completely regret it, so I’m learning a little at a time. I’m getting there.

I still haven’t contacted my endocrinologist. I’m going to get a raise at my job, so maybe that’ll be able to help pay for the second insulin, but really, I don’t think I can afford it. Oh and my pharmacist gave me a different needle from the one I’ve had and I HATE IT. It says it’s the same length as my other needle but that is a bull lie, it looks so much longer! When I inserted the needle in my thigh, I felt the whole thing and it kind of felt like it popped something when the whole needle went in, I don’t know how else to describe it. When I was injecting the insulin, I could feel every single click of the plunger as each unit went in and I HATED THAT MOST. It’s not been a good experience.

I’m working and studying to get my securities license. I’m trying to really work on my business and it’s going to be a long road, but I have to keep reminding myself why I’m doing it. The studying is like learning a whole new language but I’m excited about it.

My blood sugar still hasn’t been in range all that much lately, but I’m getting there. I wish I wasn’t diabetic. I wish I could have a child and a house of our own. I wish I wasn’t fat and I had an actual butt. Wishing can only get you so far. You have to put in the work and make your wishes come true. You can shout your wishes to the Universe, but YOU have to meet the Universe halfway. I’m trying to meet the Universe halfway and it’s a lot of work, but I have so much to fight for. I have to fight for it, no matter what.

Season Two: Episode One

JANUARY 4, 2021

It’s a new year and honestly I’m not sure if it’s a new me. The drive and passion to make changes in my life are just as strong as five days ago but my willpower is as low as ever. I know what I have to do, it’s finding the motivation to get up and move. When I do move, I’ll keep moving. It’s the first step that’s always the hardest.

On the other hand, The Young and Diabetic has turned one and it’s honestly so amazing that I’ve managed to keep this blog going for one year. I’m notorious for starting things and stopping right in the middle, but I think it’s because I’m so passionate about diabetes that’s keeping me going. Not to mention you guys. As much as I like writing to keep me busy, it’s good to know that someone, somewhere out there is reading my work and actually liking what I write. You’re amazing. If you weren’t here, I would have stopped writing a long time ago I think.

I hate the idea of resolutions and diets. I hate them because I never remember them and I never stick to them. Resolutions seem so temporary even though they’re meant to be kept the entire year, we forget after a couple of weeks. So instead, here is a list of my goals for the year:

  1. Build My Followership. Get 500 followers on The Young and Diabetic blog, 250 likes on The Young and Diabetic Facebook page, and 150 followers on @younganddiabetic on Instagram, 500 subscribers to my newsletter.
  2. Reach My Goal Weight. I am now 212lbs and I want to reach my goal weight of 160lbs this year. That’s a 52lb weight loss, one pound per week.
  3. Reach Etsy Shop Goals. Make $1000 in revenue and 150 orders.
  4. Reach My Business Goals. Protect 60 families and recruit 60 people with my business.
  5. Save More Money. Get to $2000 for retirement, save up $2000 for a second car, and save up $2000 to buy a house. This is just for the year but I hope to save up a lot more.
  6. Get My Diabetes Under Control. I want to be able to lower my insulin and metformin dosage this year.

I’m going to print out my goals and post them in my room and at my desk so I can always seem them and take steps everyday to achieving them. I encourage you to write down your goals for the year. Avoid using certain phrases like “I want to lose 20lbs” instead say you want to achieve your goal weight of whatever it is. Aim big, you more than likely won’t make it but even if you make it halfway, that’s a big win. Like I have 100 followers right now and it took all year to get 100. I think realistically I can get another 100 this year, but if I aim for 500, 250 will still be a big win for me!

Feel free to share your goals with me so I can help cheer you on. You all are going to keep me accountable this year. I really appreciate all of you. Thank you for sticking with me. I hope you have a great 2021 and you achieve your goals and dreams this year.

Celebrating One Year!

Today The Young and Diabetic turns ONE!

I can’t believe 2020 has come and finally gone. Our first year together has been filled with ups and downs. We’ve been through a lot together, you, my valued reader, and I.

I remember in the final months of 2019, I was planning out my new up and coming blog about diabetes. I started putting together my website and began planning what kinds of posts I would publish. My mission was to educate people about diabetes so they can better manage their disease or so they can help others on their journey. My mission stays the same now going in to 2021.

I fell off the wagon last year and I plan to get right back on for the new year. My plans for this blog are too grow my followership and post regularly. I want to post more diabetic-friendly recipes and find more things about diabetes. I want to expand my Etsy shop and get better at marketing. But most of all, I want to continue sharing relevant and quality information about diabetes with all of you.

Also, to celebrate this amazing milestone for me, I will be offering free shipping on my Etsy shop ALL MONTH LONG!!! You can now have your stickers and masks shipped to you for free. My email subscribers are also going to receive a special discount for my shop, so if you want to find out what it is, subscribe to my newsletter to get access to special discounts and extra goodies!

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I have other products in the works which were supposed to be released this week but due to how backed up everything got with the holidays, I’ve had to postpone release until further notice. My email subscribers already know what’s coming and I really can’t wait to share with everyone.

2021 is going to be a great year regardless of everything to do with the pandemic. I’m speaking this in to existence right now. 2021 is going to be great. For me. For you. For everyone. We can make it through this new year. You’ve got this. And thank you for supporting me and celebrating one year of The Young and Diabetic.