Season Three: Episode Twelve

APRIL 11, 2022

So my A1C is at 10.2. That’s not good. Last Thursday I went to do my DOT physical for work. Because of my sugars, the doctor only cleared me for three months then I have to go back in and do a recheck.

I have to get my sugar under control in that time or I will be disqualified. Also, I can’t take injectable insulin because that’s another thing that could disqualify me. But the doctor did say I can take Ozempic so I let my endocrinologist know on Friday during that appointment.

I have another appointment with my endocrinologist next month to check up and see how things are going. Right now my fasting sugar was not great so I have to seriously rethink everything because I want to keep this job.

I got one of those weighted hula hoops to hopefully help with weight loss and lose some inches around my waist. I’m pretty active while on tour, but until tourism is back full force, which I’m not looking forward to, tours will be a little less frequent for now.

I’m hoping I can do what’s necessary to keep my job. I need to get a new glucose monitor. The one I have has to be replaced every year, but I’ve had mine for two years now. I just wanna make sure it stays fresh.

Tomorrow, I have a dentist appointment for the first time in a couple years. I hope my teeth are doing okay and diabetes hasn’t affected them in the mean time. I don’t think I’ve been to the dentist since my diabetes diagnosis in 2017.

I hope I can do this. I really like my job a lot. I can do this.

Season Three: Episode Nine

MARCH 13, 2022

I have apparently gained two pounds since my last doctor visit on February 11. What a shame. I am currently 194 lbs. I’m a little disappointed in that since my lowest weight last year was 186lbs and since then it’s kind of gone up. It’s definitely because I’m eating more. I’ve been finding myself to be more hungry these past couple of months.

However, I have recently gone back to my job as a tour guide. We all got laid off when the pandemic started and now since our case numbers are lower, I feel a bit more comfortable to go back to work with them. It’s more active. I went on my first training tour on Friday and I walked over 8000 steps! I usually don’t walk more than 2000-3000 steps per day, 6000 when we’re doing the grocery shopping.

I can’t wait to get back to work with them. I really did love working for them and meeting new people from around the world. They’re kind of short staffed though which means I’ll be expected to do the longer tours that I didn’t do last time. But I’m looking forward to it.

I have my visual field eye appointment on the 21st. I’m hoping my visual field hasn’t changed too drastically since last year. I’ve never had to do that appointment until last year and I assume my diabetes is a bit of a concern for my eye doctor, which is totally understandable. I’m concerned too.

Please enjoy this picture I took while we were on tour at Hawaii Volcanoes National Park overlooking the glow of the lava lake in Halemaumau crater of Kilauea volcano.

I got the lab paperwork from my endocrinologist. I’ve got to do that a week before my appointment on April 7. Unfortunately, I won’t be able to let my ophthalmologist about my A1C as my eye appointment will be April 4. I’ll probably have to call them to update them on my newest A1C. I’m not looking forward to what it’ll be though.

And then my first dentist appointment in years will be on April 12. April is going to be a very active doctor appointment month. And I’m not looking forward to my A1C update nor am I looking forward to getting my blood taken. I hate needles!

Thankfully, the mask mandate for Hawaii should finally be lifted on March 26. At least I won’t have to wear a mask while I’m getting my blood taken and I think they’re also rolling back on social distancing and indoor max capacities. But I’m still a little scared about all of the rollbacks. I have lasted two years without getting COVID and I want to keep it that way.

Also the blog has reached 196 followers! I’m almost to 200 people who appreciate the information I share with them every week. I appreciate every single one of you always and forever. I love sharing my journey and the information I’m learning about diabetes with all of you.

If I can get to 300 followers, I will seriously consider trying to start a Patreon to help pay for the monthly and annual bills as well as bring more than just stickers to my blog shop. I’m thinking acrylic pins and window clings. Who knows really? It’s so exciting!

Thank you for each and every single one of you readers out there. Don’t forget to share my blog with your loved ones. And don’t forget that you are so loved and you matter, if not to the people in your life, then you are loved and matter to me. My inbox and DMs are always open, feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to. I’ll be there.

Season Three: Episode Eight

MARCH 6, 2022

I have my next PCP appointment this week for a refill of my prescriptions. I wish I could get an earlier appointment with my endocrinologist. I’m wondering, the mask mandates in Hawaii are supposed to go away by the end of the month. Supposedly. So does that mean my doctor will no longer do telephone appointments. Does that mean I have to fly to Oahu for my appointments again?

I mean I’d love to go to Oahu and stop by Ala Moana Center for sure, but the price of flights are ridiculous right now. The cheapest round trip being just under $200 per person. And I don’t like to go to Oahu by myself so obviously my husband would go with me.

I could do a travel reimbursement for our flights. That would have to go through my endocrinologist’s office to put the request in for me and then hopefully it gets approved. But knowing HMSA they’ll probably only reimburse if we take the cheapest flights, which means first flight in the morning and last flight in the evening.

Usually we take an Uber or Lyft from the airport to the doctor’s office because it’s quicker. Then it’s a decent walk from there to Ala Moana for lunch and some shopping. Then we take the bus back to the airport.

The last time we took the last flight out of Honolulu, the bus didn’t run after 6 so we had to take the 4:30pm or thereabouts. And we waited at the terminal for HOURS, it was so freaking boring especially because we took Southwest and that side of the terminal all the shops close early. Lame.

I’m not going to lie. I don’t really want to fly to Oahu for my appointments. It’s really draining and I hate flying. The motion sickness is unreal. Plus that’s a whole day that we’d have to take off and with the way things are going, I’m still afraid of COVID. But only time will tell I guess.

Season Three: Episode Seven

FEBRUARY 27, 2022

So far this nothing to report. I have a PCP appointment next week to refill my prescriptions and then an eye appointment later in March to check my visual field.

I have noticed my left eye’s periphery is starting to decrease but I’m still able to see okay. My left eye is definitely my concern as I notice my eyesight getting blurrier as time goes on. I’ve had to depend on my glasses more and more now when they used to be when I drive at night, now I need them during the day too.

My eye pressure has been elevated for the last couple of years and I’m sure that has to do with my diabetes. I have to get my diabetes under better control so the pressure in my eye hopefully can go down without the need of prescription eye drops.

Let’s see what else is there? I have a WordPress blog goal! I want to reach 300 followers with WordPress or email. Hopefully if I reach that goal, I’ll be able to set up a Patreon that way I have the ability to create even more content and reach even more people. I’d love to offer exclusive things to my patrons, including the freedom to choose what you want to read about as well as vote what sticker designs come next and I would love to send you folks stickers every month. Something to think about.

I have a 2022 reading goal of 50 books. Not going to lie, I think I’m going to reach that goal way before the end of the year. I read ten books in January and almost ten in February. I forgot how much I love sitting on my bed and reading a really awesome book. Of course, I also forgot about how it feels to come across BAD books. Like this one I just finished. I’m not even going to bother doing a review on the blog for it, it’s so bad.

My weight loss goal is to make it to 150 pounds by the end of the year. So far the first two months haven’t gone the way I want. I gained some weight, but this week I was able to get down to what I started at at the beginning of the year. So hopefully it keeps going down.

I’m on my last pen of Ozempic from my old insurance. I don’t think my new one covers Ozempic as far as I know. I still hate needles. Not looking forward to insulin that’s for sure.

I’m thinking I want to add something else to my physical activity besides just walking. I’m thinking about skateboarding. I like the idea of cruising down the road. My sisters used to have skateboards in school and they hardly used it so I’d go out and try them out. I didn’t know much and stayed on flat roads for safety reasons especially since I didn’t have a helmet or anything because I didn’t like their heads. But it’s been something I’ve been wanting to do since then.

The days are getting hotter in Hawaii and the nights are also getting warmer. I’m going to have to put away the thick blankets and sweatpants pajamas now. It’s going to be a hot summer.

Otherwise that’s pretty much it. I don’t think there will be much to report next week. Tuesday is Mardi Gras, Fat Tuesday, or in Hawaii, Malasada Day! My husband and I will be in Kona on Tuesday so I’m looking forward to getting malasadas from somewhere. Thursday is World Book Day and I will celebrate by reading. Check out my Twitter to see what I’m currently reading.

Hope you all had a great February and I hope you all have a BETTER March. Mahalo! 🌺

Season Three: Episode Six

FEBRUARY 21, 2022

Today is my dad’s birthday. He would have been 51. He died eight years ago now. We don’t know what took him from us but we found him in the morning and it was the hardest day of my life thus far. He had diabetes, kidney failure, heart disease, and probably a number of other things that we were just too naive to know about. He’s the reason why I’m doing this. I didn’t know anything about diabetes until I was diagnosed with it myself. If I had known then half the things I know now, maybe we could have helped my dad better with his diseases.

I miss him every day and there’s always something going on that I wish he could have been here to see. He was supposed to be at my wedding and at my sister’s wedding. He was supposed to be here to help my mom, she needs someone to share life with. He was supposed to be here.

There’s no excuse today to not know what diabetes can do to you. The kind of complications that come along with it. There are so many resources out there and my blog is a way for me to combine the information I find in one place, not just for myself but also for everyone who can benefit from this.

I want so badly for a cure to be found, if there’s one to be found, that I will donate to diabetes research and to organizations that help to educate and manage diabetes. It’s so important for us to know what diabetes is and can do. I thoroughly believe in that.


So far, I’ve got an appointment with my endocrinologist in April, that was the earliest he could take me. I think more and more people are going to see the doctors and since a lot of doctors moved away or retired here in Hawaii, whatever doctors are left are being overwhelmed with patients. We need better healthcare and access to healthcare in Hawaii. We need more doctors here.

Next month, I have another appointment with my PCP for refill of my prescriptions and an eye appointment to test my visual field. In April, I have another eye appointment to go over the test results. I also have my endocrinologist appointment to discuss insulin options and I also have an appointment with a dentist for the first time in years.

I’m getting my healthcare in order this year now since I have my own health insurance. I really need to get it together because I think I need insulin again. I’m both looking forward to it and dreading it. I hate needles. Hopefully things get better from here.

Season Two: Episode Six

MARCH 28, 2021

This week I had an eye appointment for my new glasses. My eyes have gotten a little worse in the last three years. In the past year, I’ve been getting headaches from wearing my glasses so I knew I needed a new prescription. I’m glad I’m getting new ones.

My ophthalmologist said that the pressure in my eye is borderline high. I’m not sure how I can lower the pressure in my eye, but he said that’s the only problem he sees with my eyes right now, so I’m really glad that even though my diabetes still isn’t under control, it isn’t completely messing up my body yet.

On Friday, I had my appointment with my endocrinologist. Not very helpful. He wants to try and put me back on Ozempic. I told him that we were doing better financially but I don’t think we’re that great yet. I mean $800 per pen for only a month’s worth. Not sure how I feel about it but I said I would try. I’m not sure if he’s also giving me the fast-acting insulin too or if I’m even still going to be taking my Lantus with the Ozempic. I have to give his office a call this week to clarify my drug usage.

I’ve been feeling unwell the last couple of days. I haven’t been in to work much but I’m still working from home. I woke up with a sore throat a couple days ago and it went away, then the next morning it was worse and didn’t fully go away. Then this morning at 4:30 I woke up and couldn’t breathe or swallow and I was coughing. And I’m not going to lie to you, I thought I had COVID. I started crying and I couldn’t go back to sleep for a long while. But after sitting up for a while and drinking water, my cough got better and I was able to swallow a bit more.

My husband bought me cold and cough medicine when he came home from work and I took some and felt a lot better. I’m still coughing here and there but I can breathe. I’m still worried it’s COVID. We don’t have free COVID testing until Wednesday and that’s a bit too long to be out of work I think. But we’ll see what happens when I wake up in the morning on Monday, because apparently it happens while I’m asleep.

I’ll give you folks an update next Monday here on the blog or earlier on my Facebook page. I don’t know what’s going on with me, but if tomorrow I feel worse, I’m going to go to Urgent Care to see what the heck is up with my body. Wish me luck folks.

Season Two: Episode Two

JANUARY 10, 2021

I had my eye doctor appointment this past week. Turns out my eyes are okay. Thank goodness. I was a little worried when I took an eye test that gauged my peripheral vision. I could hardly see most of the lines with my left eye, but my doctor said I was nearly perfect which was good considering it was my first time doing that test. Though I do remember when I was a kid, I did something like it at my pediatrician’s doctor office. Gosh that was a memory from a million years ago, I still remember how the doctor office looked it never changed, and it actually still hasn’t changed to this day. The same doctor is there still practicing.

My gynecologist is the same doctor that delivered my sisters and I. It’s pretty crazy living in a small town. Hardly anything changes here, but when you really look, everything has changed.

I am currently making changes to my life. I think it’s been pretty positive so far. I have consciously made the decision to eat less rice. Before I would eat rice every meal of the day, but now it’s only once or twice a day, mostly once though. As I write this on Sunday night, I had a fruit salad for dinner because I had a pretty heavy breakfast, medium lunch, and I just didn’t feel like eating a lot for dinner so we went and got fruits. I wanted apples, but I ended up eating the fruit salad instead tonight.

This morning, I was the lightest I’ve been since May 2020. I weighed in at 207.9lbs. I’ve been plateaued at 212 for a long time and I’m really glad that cutting out rice has really made me feel lighter and less bloated. Sometimes I’m weak and eat a bunch of rice, but now I feel awful afterwards and completely regret it, so I’m learning a little at a time. I’m getting there.

I still haven’t contacted my endocrinologist. I’m going to get a raise at my job, so maybe that’ll be able to help pay for the second insulin, but really, I don’t think I can afford it. Oh and my pharmacist gave me a different needle from the one I’ve had and I HATE IT. It says it’s the same length as my other needle but that is a bull lie, it looks so much longer! When I inserted the needle in my thigh, I felt the whole thing and it kind of felt like it popped something when the whole needle went in, I don’t know how else to describe it. When I was injecting the insulin, I could feel every single click of the plunger as each unit went in and I HATED THAT MOST. It’s not been a good experience.

I’m working and studying to get my securities license. I’m trying to really work on my business and it’s going to be a long road, but I have to keep reminding myself why I’m doing it. The studying is like learning a whole new language but I’m excited about it.

My blood sugar still hasn’t been in range all that much lately, but I’m getting there. I wish I wasn’t diabetic. I wish I could have a child and a house of our own. I wish I wasn’t fat and I had an actual butt. Wishing can only get you so far. You have to put in the work and make your wishes come true. You can shout your wishes to the Universe, but YOU have to meet the Universe halfway. I’m trying to meet the Universe halfway and it’s a lot of work, but I have so much to fight for. I have to fight for it, no matter what.

The Journey: Episode Twenty-One

AUGUST 30, 2020

I had my doctor appointment on Thursday. I’m a little confused. I told my doctor all about my difficulties with my 85 units of Lantus and my blood sugar not being within range. We were concerned that my A1C hadn’t improved. So he decided to prescribe Novolog Mix 70/30. He wants me to take 50 units twice a day, 15 minutes before a meal.

What I’m confused about is, am I taking both Lantus and Novolog? I forgot to ask on the phone appointment and when I called the office an hour later to change pharmacies. I had to go with the Walgreen’s in my area because of the price. CVS would have charged me almost $250 per box, whereas Walgreens could catch me at $140, I hope. I’d have to use GoodRx for this one. But if I still have to take Lantus, then it’s cheaper at CVS. Then my pills are all at another pharmacy. All of this because my health insurance won’t cover insulin.

So because I don’t know if I’m taking both, I ran out of Lantus, I don’t have any money for either of them, and my Walgreens was fresh out of Novolog so I have to wait until Monday afternoon to see if it came in and take my insurance cards to them. I also have to hope they’ll take my GoodRx for the price it says. If not then I’m not going to be able to take this insulin AT ALL. This is so frustrating, not being able to afford your medication.

My last dose was Thursday night and since then I’ve had to rely on my cinnamon tea and berberine supplements. Surprisingly, they’ve been holding me at an okay morning blood sugar. It’s not within range but it’s not over 150 either so that’s good. I’m wondering if my insulin really is working or if this whole time it’s been the tea and berberine that’s gotten my number down in the morning. I’d like to try and purchase at least one box of Novolog to see if it will be more effective.

I’m so upset. He was going to prescribe me Ozempic, which I know worked, but it was over $400 for ONE PEN. I had it for one month last year and I was only able to buy it because my sister and best friend loaned me money to get it. But I can’t afford it now with this pandemic. I don’t know what to do. We have bills to pay, my unemployment benefit claim is going to be up soon (and that was only $200 every two weeks), and my husband doesn’t make enough for the bills but too much to qualify for unemployment.

Because of this, I’ve decided to start selling merchandise for my blog. If the sales can cover the monthly costs for my blog, then that’s one less thing we have to worry about each month. If you’re interested in pre-ordering some stickers, you can find the post on Instagram or on my Facebook page.

Also, I’m trying to kickstart my merchandise so I can eventually open an online shop and prepare for World Diabetes Day and National Diabetes Awareness Month this November. I’m always coming up with sticker designs and there will be new ones added every time. This pre-order is to help me order more stickers. Please think about supporting. I know it’s not a great time right now with the pandemic but anything helps.

Hopefully, next week I’ll be able to update you folks that I was able to buy my insulin and my numbers are looking better. I have no idea what the future holds but I can only hope that it looks bright.