Season Three: Episode Twelve

APRIL 11, 2022

So my A1C is at 10.2. That’s not good. Last Thursday I went to do my DOT physical for work. Because of my sugars, the doctor only cleared me for three months then I have to go back in and do a recheck.

I have to get my sugar under control in that time or I will be disqualified. Also, I can’t take injectable insulin because that’s another thing that could disqualify me. But the doctor did say I can take Ozempic so I let my endocrinologist know on Friday during that appointment.

I have another appointment with my endocrinologist next month to check up and see how things are going. Right now my fasting sugar was not great so I have to seriously rethink everything because I want to keep this job.

I got one of those weighted hula hoops to hopefully help with weight loss and lose some inches around my waist. I’m pretty active while on tour, but until tourism is back full force, which I’m not looking forward to, tours will be a little less frequent for now.

I’m hoping I can do what’s necessary to keep my job. I need to get a new glucose monitor. The one I have has to be replaced every year, but I’ve had mine for two years now. I just wanna make sure it stays fresh.

Tomorrow, I have a dentist appointment for the first time in a couple years. I hope my teeth are doing okay and diabetes hasn’t affected them in the mean time. I don’t think I’ve been to the dentist since my diabetes diagnosis in 2017.

I hope I can do this. I really like my job a lot. I can do this.

Season Three: Episode Ten

MARCH 20, 2022

This week I’m going to call around to see where I can get a Department of Transportation physical for work. I also have to get my drivers abstract but the DOT physical is the hardest to get. There are 13 places in Hilo that I can get one done. Besides our Urgent Care, the others are physicians that I’m not a patient of.

I would like to get the physical done this week but I have to call and set an appointment for it. If they can’t take me in, then I’d have to try and see if the other physicians will take me just for the physical.

I’m really excited to get back to work for this company. It’s been two years since I was there and I loved meeting new people and sharing my home with them. But most of all, I loved when they would go home. There are too many people coming to live in Hawaii because it’s “paradise” and they drive up the cost of homes here. Very disheartening.

I have to take my A1C blood test on the 31st in time for my endocrinologist appointment and I’m not looking forward to it. I think it’ll be easier to get in to the office now than during the pandemic, but I won’t be sure until I get there to see what procedures they still have.

Every time I get my blood drawn, I get on my phone and scroll social media or play a game on my phone or literally anything else but look at what they’re doing to my arm. One time, I counted the little lines on the frosted glass, there were 34 lines. I don’t like to see my blood go in to the little tubes.

I have my visual field appointment in the morning and I’m curious to see if my peripheral vision has changed since I last did it. I know my left eye wasn’t doing so hot last time. It felt really sad to not click when the line showed up on my left side.

But all in all, I’m looking forward to another week of trying to survive life. I hope you’re all doing well out there.

Season Three: Episode Nine

MARCH 13, 2022

I have apparently gained two pounds since my last doctor visit on February 11. What a shame. I am currently 194 lbs. I’m a little disappointed in that since my lowest weight last year was 186lbs and since then it’s kind of gone up. It’s definitely because I’m eating more. I’ve been finding myself to be more hungry these past couple of months.

However, I have recently gone back to my job as a tour guide. We all got laid off when the pandemic started and now since our case numbers are lower, I feel a bit more comfortable to go back to work with them. It’s more active. I went on my first training tour on Friday and I walked over 8000 steps! I usually don’t walk more than 2000-3000 steps per day, 6000 when we’re doing the grocery shopping.

I can’t wait to get back to work with them. I really did love working for them and meeting new people from around the world. They’re kind of short staffed though which means I’ll be expected to do the longer tours that I didn’t do last time. But I’m looking forward to it.

I have my visual field eye appointment on the 21st. I’m hoping my visual field hasn’t changed too drastically since last year. I’ve never had to do that appointment until last year and I assume my diabetes is a bit of a concern for my eye doctor, which is totally understandable. I’m concerned too.

Please enjoy this picture I took while we were on tour at Hawaii Volcanoes National Park overlooking the glow of the lava lake in Halemaumau crater of Kilauea volcano.

I got the lab paperwork from my endocrinologist. I’ve got to do that a week before my appointment on April 7. Unfortunately, I won’t be able to let my ophthalmologist about my A1C as my eye appointment will be April 4. I’ll probably have to call them to update them on my newest A1C. I’m not looking forward to what it’ll be though.

And then my first dentist appointment in years will be on April 12. April is going to be a very active doctor appointment month. And I’m not looking forward to my A1C update nor am I looking forward to getting my blood taken. I hate needles!

Thankfully, the mask mandate for Hawaii should finally be lifted on March 26. At least I won’t have to wear a mask while I’m getting my blood taken and I think they’re also rolling back on social distancing and indoor max capacities. But I’m still a little scared about all of the rollbacks. I have lasted two years without getting COVID and I want to keep it that way.

Also the blog has reached 196 followers! I’m almost to 200 people who appreciate the information I share with them every week. I appreciate every single one of you always and forever. I love sharing my journey and the information I’m learning about diabetes with all of you.

If I can get to 300 followers, I will seriously consider trying to start a Patreon to help pay for the monthly and annual bills as well as bring more than just stickers to my blog shop. I’m thinking acrylic pins and window clings. Who knows really? It’s so exciting!

Thank you for each and every single one of you readers out there. Don’t forget to share my blog with your loved ones. And don’t forget that you are so loved and you matter, if not to the people in your life, then you are loved and matter to me. My inbox and DMs are always open, feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to. I’ll be there.

Season Three: Episode Eight

MARCH 6, 2022

I have my next PCP appointment this week for a refill of my prescriptions. I wish I could get an earlier appointment with my endocrinologist. I’m wondering, the mask mandates in Hawaii are supposed to go away by the end of the month. Supposedly. So does that mean my doctor will no longer do telephone appointments. Does that mean I have to fly to Oahu for my appointments again?

I mean I’d love to go to Oahu and stop by Ala Moana Center for sure, but the price of flights are ridiculous right now. The cheapest round trip being just under $200 per person. And I don’t like to go to Oahu by myself so obviously my husband would go with me.

I could do a travel reimbursement for our flights. That would have to go through my endocrinologist’s office to put the request in for me and then hopefully it gets approved. But knowing HMSA they’ll probably only reimburse if we take the cheapest flights, which means first flight in the morning and last flight in the evening.

Usually we take an Uber or Lyft from the airport to the doctor’s office because it’s quicker. Then it’s a decent walk from there to Ala Moana for lunch and some shopping. Then we take the bus back to the airport.

The last time we took the last flight out of Honolulu, the bus didn’t run after 6 so we had to take the 4:30pm or thereabouts. And we waited at the terminal for HOURS, it was so freaking boring especially because we took Southwest and that side of the terminal all the shops close early. Lame.

I’m not going to lie. I don’t really want to fly to Oahu for my appointments. It’s really draining and I hate flying. The motion sickness is unreal. Plus that’s a whole day that we’d have to take off and with the way things are going, I’m still afraid of COVID. But only time will tell I guess.

Season Three: Episode Seven

FEBRUARY 27, 2022

So far this nothing to report. I have a PCP appointment next week to refill my prescriptions and then an eye appointment later in March to check my visual field.

I have noticed my left eye’s periphery is starting to decrease but I’m still able to see okay. My left eye is definitely my concern as I notice my eyesight getting blurrier as time goes on. I’ve had to depend on my glasses more and more now when they used to be when I drive at night, now I need them during the day too.

My eye pressure has been elevated for the last couple of years and I’m sure that has to do with my diabetes. I have to get my diabetes under better control so the pressure in my eye hopefully can go down without the need of prescription eye drops.

Let’s see what else is there? I have a WordPress blog goal! I want to reach 300 followers with WordPress or email. Hopefully if I reach that goal, I’ll be able to set up a Patreon that way I have the ability to create even more content and reach even more people. I’d love to offer exclusive things to my patrons, including the freedom to choose what you want to read about as well as vote what sticker designs come next and I would love to send you folks stickers every month. Something to think about.

I have a 2022 reading goal of 50 books. Not going to lie, I think I’m going to reach that goal way before the end of the year. I read ten books in January and almost ten in February. I forgot how much I love sitting on my bed and reading a really awesome book. Of course, I also forgot about how it feels to come across BAD books. Like this one I just finished. I’m not even going to bother doing a review on the blog for it, it’s so bad.

My weight loss goal is to make it to 150 pounds by the end of the year. So far the first two months haven’t gone the way I want. I gained some weight, but this week I was able to get down to what I started at at the beginning of the year. So hopefully it keeps going down.

I’m on my last pen of Ozempic from my old insurance. I don’t think my new one covers Ozempic as far as I know. I still hate needles. Not looking forward to insulin that’s for sure.

I’m thinking I want to add something else to my physical activity besides just walking. I’m thinking about skateboarding. I like the idea of cruising down the road. My sisters used to have skateboards in school and they hardly used it so I’d go out and try them out. I didn’t know much and stayed on flat roads for safety reasons especially since I didn’t have a helmet or anything because I didn’t like their heads. But it’s been something I’ve been wanting to do since then.

The days are getting hotter in Hawaii and the nights are also getting warmer. I’m going to have to put away the thick blankets and sweatpants pajamas now. It’s going to be a hot summer.

Otherwise that’s pretty much it. I don’t think there will be much to report next week. Tuesday is Mardi Gras, Fat Tuesday, or in Hawaii, Malasada Day! My husband and I will be in Kona on Tuesday so I’m looking forward to getting malasadas from somewhere. Thursday is World Book Day and I will celebrate by reading. Check out my Twitter to see what I’m currently reading.

Hope you all had a great February and I hope you all have a BETTER March. Mahalo! 🌺

Season Three: Episode Six

FEBRUARY 21, 2022

Today is my dad’s birthday. He would have been 51. He died eight years ago now. We don’t know what took him from us but we found him in the morning and it was the hardest day of my life thus far. He had diabetes, kidney failure, heart disease, and probably a number of other things that we were just too naive to know about. He’s the reason why I’m doing this. I didn’t know anything about diabetes until I was diagnosed with it myself. If I had known then half the things I know now, maybe we could have helped my dad better with his diseases.

I miss him every day and there’s always something going on that I wish he could have been here to see. He was supposed to be at my wedding and at my sister’s wedding. He was supposed to be here to help my mom, she needs someone to share life with. He was supposed to be here.

There’s no excuse today to not know what diabetes can do to you. The kind of complications that come along with it. There are so many resources out there and my blog is a way for me to combine the information I find in one place, not just for myself but also for everyone who can benefit from this.

I want so badly for a cure to be found, if there’s one to be found, that I will donate to diabetes research and to organizations that help to educate and manage diabetes. It’s so important for us to know what diabetes is and can do. I thoroughly believe in that.


So far, I’ve got an appointment with my endocrinologist in April, that was the earliest he could take me. I think more and more people are going to see the doctors and since a lot of doctors moved away or retired here in Hawaii, whatever doctors are left are being overwhelmed with patients. We need better healthcare and access to healthcare in Hawaii. We need more doctors here.

Next month, I have another appointment with my PCP for refill of my prescriptions and an eye appointment to test my visual field. In April, I have another eye appointment to go over the test results. I also have my endocrinologist appointment to discuss insulin options and I also have an appointment with a dentist for the first time in years.

I’m getting my healthcare in order this year now since I have my own health insurance. I really need to get it together because I think I need insulin again. I’m both looking forward to it and dreading it. I hate needles. Hopefully things get better from here.

Season Three: Episode Five

FEBRUARY 13, 2022

For the 15th year in a row, my Super Bowl luck has come through. For the 15th year in a row, the team I rooted for LOST. Without fail, I root for the loser. I tell my family, “If last year was any indicator, if you want a team to win, tell me to root for the other team!” I really was hoping the Bengals would win.

Now I’m sitting in my room at 10pm recounting the past Super Bowl halftime shows. This year’s was great it was like all the concerts I’ve always wanted to see rolled in to one. I wish it was longer though. Last year’s was awesome even mid-pandemic. Maroon 5 though. I’ll leave it at that.

Let’s see, I still haven’t set an appointment with my endocrinologist because I only just got my insurance cards a couple days ago and I have to update my profile eventually and see what’s available, probably nothing in the near future.

My foot doctor appointment went well. Nothing strange or crazy with my feet thankfully. I hope I can keep my appointments annually for a long time. Not gonna lie, I do get some pains and tingles. I have a suspicion that my big toes are losing some feeling but I can still feel and the pains aren’t long lasting and they aren’t frequent. So until they get worse, I’ll keep going. If something changes, I will head straight to my doctor.

So far everything else is going okay health-wise. I have gained a couple pounds since the year started. But I have plateaued and I haven’t gained anymore weight thankfully. But I’m not losing it either. I’m at 191lbs now. And I wanted to badly to be at 180 by now. My weight loss goal is to lose 15 pounds since starting which was a start of 195. If I reached 180, then I would be rewarded by my husband. He was gonna build another Gunpla model for me to display and it’s a pretty one.

But alas, I didn’t lose the weight. I’m still trying though. I think I stopped when I left my job and started working from home again. With access to food at my fingertips instead of being too bust to eat, I’ve gained some weight back.

I’m still making the time to walk my dog every day, but with the rainy season and all the slippery sidewalks and roads, I’m pretty limited but I still try to stay active by walking around in my house every so often. So I’m not sitting and vegetating. I’m also drinking water with the occasional juice and staying away from soda completely.

It’s a work in progress, but I’ll keep working at it. I can and will get down to 130 lbs and make healthier choices. Also remember to tell your loved ones that you love them. Life’s too short not to love the people closest to you. Happy Valentine’s Day.

Season Three: Episode Four

FEBRUARY 6, 2022

Happy Black History Month!

Something a little different for a journey update this week. I have mixed feelings on Black History Month. I don’t think we should relegate African American history to only one month. We shouldn’t highlight black history and black businesses and just general blackness to one month. It should be celebrated every day of the year. Black history is American history and we should all know this history.

I saw a TikTok a while ago that was upset about how our education system doesn’t tell all of the United States of America’s history, the good AND the bad. Always focusing on the history as if there are winners all the time in this country. Trying to erase all of the bad. The TikTok user had issued a challenge, the American History Challenge.

In it, she challenges you to research the topics, learn about it, and share it with others. So I’m going to take this month to learn about America’s history and share it with you. Feel free to do your own research and I would love some suggestions on things you think I should research and learn more about. I will create a new page just for the American History Challenge.


As an update on myself though, I am doing a challenge for myself this month. I am going to read every day this month and I will only drink water this month. The water drinking is a little hard because I’ve been having sugar cravings off the wall, but if I ignore them and just keep drinking water, they go away.

This year I decided to get back in to bullet journals. January’s layout sucked. So for February I decided to change it up. I love the appointment book style planner so I can keep track of times easier so I incorporated that. I’ve also added a ton of habit trackers that I didn’t have in January and I’m trying it out in February to see if I’ll continue them on. I’m keeping track of how much water I drink and how much rice I eat. I’m also tracking if I eat breakfast, lunch, and/or dinner, as well as how many steps I’m taking and if I’m doing my facial routine.

It’s a lot more fun to do than January’s spread that’s for sure. I’m still very bad at taking my blood sugar though. I haven’t taken it in quite some time. But I’m trying to figure out my habits so I can make changes to them.

I’m still waiting for my insurance cards to come in so I can set up an appointment with my endocrinologist. I have an appointment with my foot doctor tomorrow. I have a eye appointments coming up in the next couple of months and a dentist appointment in April. I’ve gotta call my PCP to schedule my next appointment to refill my prescriptions and birth control. Our healthcare system seriously sucks. Hopefully I’ll be able to get insulin again. Fingers crossed.

Season Three: Episode Two

JANUARY 17, 2022

Things are slow going. I’m still trying to get health insurance through Healthcare Marketplace. I’ve got it but they need to verify my credits used towards it and that takes a hot second. I’ve already got my dental plan going. I have to wait until after February 1 to do any doctor appointments.

I haven’t seen my endocrinologist since, I think, last September. I haven’t gotten my current A1C done since then.

I saw my eye doctor last month and I can push my appointments to four months apart instead of three but I need a visual field test in March first. Not gonna lie I think my visual field is a bit bad. My peripheral has some blank spots, not good. It’s mostly my left eye that’s giving me problems. If I don’t get my diabetes under control I’m gonna need eye injections and those don’t look fun AT ALL!!

My feet have been okay lately. I still get random cramps but I can still feel things so that’s a good sign. I don’t want to lose feeling in my toes.

I can’t wait to find a dentist. I haven’t seen one in three years. My teeth may need some help to be honest. I found our my family on my mom’s side has teeth problems. Not sure if it’s genetic or not but my mom, her siblings, and her mom all have missing teeth for whatever reason. I need to take care of my teeth.

I’ve lost two pounds last week since the week before. Weigh in days are Thursday mornings so we’ll see if I’m still losing. I am taking advantage of being at home and having a dog. Yesterday we went on a half hour walk around the neighborhood. It’s the longest walk we’ve taken in a while and we were both exhausted afterwards. I need to make it a regular thing. She needs to lose weight too.

Thanks for sticking around. I really appreciate you.

Season Three: Episode One

JANUARY 9, 2022

Happy New Year! It’s been a long while. 2021 was not a good year for me. I lost myself a little bit and it took me a little while to get back to myself. My insurance switched prescription providers or whatever and they no longer authorized insulin. My endo and I tried to get authorizations for all kinds of insulin and they were all denied. Meaning I’d have to pay out of pocket for my insulin. Like I could afford that. But you know what they did authorize? Ozempic, that $400+ pen that you inject once per week. Yea they said I could get that. But Ozempic IS NOT A SUBSTITUTION FOR INSULIN. So I could get Ozempic but not insulin. I’ve had to try other ways to manage my blood sugar and I felt defeated when nothing I was doing on my own was working so I stopped checking my blood sugar and I’ve just been injecting Ozempic.

I am trying to turn my health around. I made a weight loss journal to track my weight loss. I’ve lost ten pounds since starting so I’m glad that I’m losing weight and maybe if I lose enough, it’ll make a great impact on my health. I’m down below 190 pounds and that’s great for me. I will continue to lose weight and exercise as best I can.

I need to be more present with my health. I want to get better because I want to be here for my family. One day I want to start my own family and I want to be as healthy as I can when I do. I feel like I’m running out of time. I’m 27 now and I feel like it’ll be harder after 30. I need to make lifestyle changes now. My sister is also trying to get her life together so we’re kind of doing it together. My husband is also losing weight with me so I’m not alone here. Also we made weight loss goals. When we reach a goal amount of pounds lost, we get to reward ourselves. My first reward is at 15 pounds lost. When I reach it, my husband will buy and build a gunpla of my choice and let me display it. He’s the one who loves building them but I like looking at them. They’ve been coming out nice and I want one for myself. I might even help him build it too if he’ll let me.

I am very hopeful for this year in my health. I will make the changes I need to this year. It just feels all very overwhelming. But I will make it through. I’m not alone in this. I know I’m not and that helps. Thanks for hanging around. I really appreciate you.